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Tenth Avenue North

What do i know of holy?

I made You promises a thousand timesI tried to hear from HeavenBut I talked the whole timeI think I made You too smallI never feared You at all NoIf You touched my face would I know You?Looked into my eyes could I behold You?What do I know of YouWho spoke me into motion?Where have I even stoodBut the shore along Your ocean?Are You fire? Are You fury?Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?What do I know? What do I know of Holy?I guess I thought that I had figured You outI knew all the stories and I learned to talk aboutHow You were might to saveThose were only empty words on a pageThen I caught a glimpse of who You might beThe slightest hint of You brought me down to my kneesWhat do I know of Holy?What do I know of wounds that will heal my shame?And a God who gave life it's name?What do I know of Holy?Of the One who the angels praise?All creation knows Your nameOn earth and heaven aboveWhat do I know of this love?What do I know of Holy?



I cry almost every time i hear this song. Something inside me just falls apart. There is so much inside me that is shattered. With all of this brokenness inside of me there is this love that feels me with such joy that i think i know but each day i only find out more about. I break down in tears when i am by myself whether it be about my brother irving who i miss dearly or my dad, my family, my friends, my life...me. I just know that this God that i love so immensly and that i think i know so well only teaches me more and more of who he is as time goes by. I see and hear him, but when i think i know all there is to know about my beautiful savior he just amazes me with even more. He gives me the wisdom and understanding to know more about who he is and of the child he wants me to be. I had to take my mom to work the other day and when i dropped her off and was heading home at 5:45 in the morning as i drove listening to 101.1 KLRC i thought of my brother irving and how much i do miss him even though we dont have the same views on things or like the same anything i had this emptiness in my heart and the tears just fell. What had brought us here? I know God was telling me something but i didnt know what, and then i had a dream 2 days later about where my brother and i just broke down in tears and forgave. God tells me so much daily but i am not always listening. I know what the bible says about love, forgiveness, brothers, and so on. But even then i am lost sometimes. I have read the entire bible twice already and i am on my third try and everytime i am given the wisdom to understand Gods word more in depth. Just when i think i know it all i find myself learning even more...What do i know of Holy?

Raven and I

A pic drew took of Raven and i in Eureka. She is too silly, i don't understand the goofy smile but that is her personality i guess.

Summer Time

I took these of my daughter playing in the water. I was splashing her with the hose because she had begged me too that day. It wasnt that easy to photograph and snap the pictures but i managed. She had a blast.

Just The 3 of Us!

This past Tuesday my fiance Andrew, my daughter Raven and i decided to take a little family vacation. So we went to Silver Dollar City in Branson Missouri and Eureka Springs Arkansas. First we visited Eureka on the way through to Branson. I had been to Eureka but have never stopped. It was mainly shops, restaurants, and exhibits. More for older people but it was still pretty cool. My favorite part was looking at the art. I paint and draw and love all forms of art so like a tourist i was carrying my camera which i take everywhere i go because i am a photographer and i so naturally i took pictures of art that inspired me, and like a child i got "in trouble" for taking pictures of the artwork. The woman was very nice about it but i was politely asked to stop, which i did. To be honest i didnt see anything wrong with it seeing as how there was no sign telling me not to take pictures or anyone else for that matter. It didnt upset me but its a tourist town...u should have a sign. The art was jaw dropping but i wont be putting up any pictures of it because i dont want to go against any of the artist wishes, but it was inspiring and beautiful. When we about had enough of that fun we decided to head to Branson and find a hotel to stay at and spend the rest of the day there before heading to Silver Dollar City the next day. While we were in Branson after leaving Eureka we got our room in a decent little place and went exploring the town. It was packed everywhere. One stop was a place next to our hotel where they sold 9 dollar bathing suits. I have never bought a suit that cheap so i decided to take a look because i had been looking for a new one but hesitated because i knew i would have to pay about 60 dollars for the one i truly wanted. I was suprised at how cute the 9 dollar suits were. I was beyond happy because i ended up find one i just had to get. We ended up grabbing dinner then heading back to the hotel to swim. Raven had been dying to do that all day. The water was cold so i got in for a few then lay out the rest of the time. My bathins suit fit better than any other suit i had ever bought. So i think the 9 dollar suit was a bargain. lol. The next day we grabbed breakfast and headed to Silver Dollar City. We started out with riding American Plunge which i hate but rode it for Raven and Drew. Then we made our way around the map of the amusement park. I am terrified of heights so rollercoasters were out of the question for me. I will admit i am a wuse. I was terrified for Raven because this would be her first time on one but she did it and loved it. She is nothing like me...she is more like her father, fearless those two. I had the most fun on the water rides. One water ride we waited an hour in line to get to ride...The Lost River. That was the only one that took that long of a wait. The lines were so long though. We thought if we went in the midle of the week the crowd wouldnt be so big but it was packed. I was disappointed in the fact that there were NO WATER FOUNTAINS anywhere in the park. Over 90 degrees outside and u had to pay 3 dollars for a bottle of water. I knew it was going to be expensive but that was a bit much. It was a long hot day but it was a good day. Raven had a blast and i was glad for her. It is now a memory she will have forever. I was glad and thankful that God blessed us with this time. It was the first vacation we as a family had ever taken. It was our mini vacation, that is what i called it because it wasnt what i would call a vacation because it was only two days but it was still our Mini Vacation. :)

Oh...one more thing. We kinda got lost on the way home...lol. But God was watching out for us because by some miracle we landed in a town we knew. We had no clue how we got there but the road we were taking that we had no idea what it was or where we were lead us to where we needed to be. I know God was leading the way.

BELOW ARE A FEWPICTURES OF OUR TRIP NO ORDER WHATSOEVER MORE TO COME...

~This picture was a painting outside on the wall of a parking lot in Eureka. So i was allowed to photograph this one. I had to because i am a huge Beatles fan. I just wish i knew who the artist was, there was no name.

This photo and the photo under neath are of 2 girls on the side of the street performing for money. The girl on the left had a really pretty voice.

This one i thought was kind of humorous.

I loved the pink of the flower.

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Trying something new...

I am not a blogger but decided to try something new. I have been seeing a counselor for anxiety and talking to him has seemed to help so if talking about it...why not write it out as well. That is my thought on it. I have also found it hard lately to talk to anyone about my issues, i just feel like no one gets me, So here i go....