What do i know of holy?

I made You promises a thousand timesI tried to hear from HeavenBut I talked the whole timeI think I made You too smallI never feared You at all NoIf You touched my face would I know You?Looked into my eyes could I behold You?What do I know of YouWho spoke me into motion?Where have I even stoodBut the shore along Your ocean?Are You fire? Are You fury?Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?What do I know? What do I know of Holy?I guess I thought that I had figured You outI knew all the stories and I learned to talk aboutHow You were might to saveThose were only empty words on a pageThen I caught a glimpse of who You might beThe slightest hint of You brought me down to my kneesWhat do I know of Holy?What do I know of wounds that will heal my shame?And a God who gave life it's name?What do I know of Holy?Of the One who the angels praise?All creation knows Your nameOn earth and heaven aboveWhat do I know of this love?What do I know of Holy?



I cry almost every time i hear this song. Something inside me just falls apart. There is so much inside me that is shattered. With all of this brokenness inside of me there is this love that feels me with such joy that i think i know but each day i only find out more about. I break down in tears when i am by myself whether it be about my brother irving who i miss dearly or my dad, my family, my friends, my life...me. I just know that this God that i love so immensly and that i think i know so well only teaches me more and more of who he is as time goes by. I see and hear him, but when i think i know all there is to know about my beautiful savior he just amazes me with even more. He gives me the wisdom and understanding to know more about who he is and of the child he wants me to be. I had to take my mom to work the other day and when i dropped her off and was heading home at 5:45 in the morning as i drove listening to 101.1 KLRC i thought of my brother irving and how much i do miss him even though we dont have the same views on things or like the same anything i had this emptiness in my heart and the tears just fell. What had brought us here? I know God was telling me something but i didnt know what, and then i had a dream 2 days later about where my brother and i just broke down in tears and forgave. God tells me so much daily but i am not always listening. I know what the bible says about love, forgiveness, brothers, and so on. But even then i am lost sometimes. I have read the entire bible twice already and i am on my third try and everytime i am given the wisdom to understand Gods word more in depth. Just when i think i know it all i find myself learning even more...What do i know of Holy?